Punching bag

Punch #1

Why do you always disappear

Right when I start loving you

And then return

Right when I start forgetting you?

Punch #2

It isn’t happiness that I look for

Anymore

But the absence of unhappiness

Punch #3

I feel like I have been shut out of your world

But you make it seem like I shut you out of mine

Regardless of who made the first move

We moved on too soon

Punch #4

Of course

It’ll be much easier to erase

All traces of you

But you come to me

In the least expected moments

In the most surprising ways

For instance

Just this morning

I found a note from you

Tucked between a half-read book

Reminding me of you

Reminding me of us

Punch #5

Sometimes all I want to do is

Disappear with the snap of fingers

But my coarse, lined skin

Has been rubbed raw

And with each snap

All I get is more

Disappointment