I spent my teens

Loving

Making friends

Talking to people

All the time

And then

When I turned nineteen

Something in my heart changed

My mind screamed

Insisted I needed to be alone

And so for three years

I built walls around me

Ran away from anyone

Who seemed to like me

Distanced myself

From everyone I loved

And now

Here I am

Twenty two

And the loneliness I added to my life

Is killing me

And there's no one at all

To save me