For the first time in a while
I'm happy
.
This is not the kind of
filled-to-the-brim happiness
that'll have me
running down the streets
with a dozen balloons
tied to a dozen ribbons
This is not the kind of
in-your-face happiness
that reminds me of
sunflowers and sunshine
so much yellow
warm
the colour of happiness
This is not the kind of
all-consuming happiness
that spreads like a
juicy rumour or
common cold
it's not contagious
my happiness won't make you happy
.
No
This is a different kind of happiness
.
This is the kind of happiness
that only shows itself
in a smile that is no longer forced
This is the kind of happiness
that fills me not with butterflies
fluttering about, but a calm emptiness
This is the kind of happiness
that makes me want to hold on to it
for as long as it lasts
