Monday, May 26, 2014

Blood is thicker than water, they say

It hurts that
You never wore
Your Sunday Best
On a day
To me

It hurts that
You never remembered
I exist
Until you were told
You can't deny
My existence

It hurts that
You are yet to spell
My name right
It's Shailee, not Shili
Do you even know
My full name?

It hurts that
You used to look away
Pretend I wasn't yours
Make me feel
Make me know
I don't belong in your life

It hurts that
You only talk with me now
Because you've been told to
But that you won't
Even make an attempt to
Get to know me

It hurts that
You still expect me to apologize
Even though
The only crime
I committed
Was being born

It hurts that
Even though he wronged
Even though you
Let him wrong
I'm the one cornered
I'm the one blamed

It hurts that
I will never be as good
As any of them
Even though
I too, do my best
To make people proud

For a different you.

Friday, May 23, 2014


And one by one
They were all gone
And it was just us
On a stranger's couch
We didn't look at each other
But didn't look away either
We didn't say a word
But the room wasn't silent
And then there was a shift
In the air around us
And for just a few seconds it felt
Like something would happen
But we both let that moment pass
We sat there in silence until the others
One by one

Wednesday, May 14, 2014


There are days like today
When I'm happy you don't play
A big role in my life
That the distance between us is great
And I don't talk with you
As much as I sometimes wish I could
And today, I didn't wait for your posts
I didn't feel too happy about the notification
Telling me you noticed something
I said

I didn't have to worry about bumping into you
Having to smile
Having to hide that
I was happy to see you
I didn't have to think twice about
What I said
In case you heard, or worse,
Someone else did and told you

There was none of the worrying
Wondering, smiling, talking
Today, it was almost as if
I didn't spend my time
Wondering about you
If you were reading, writing
Or listening to some song we both love
And today
You were just another person I knew
Someone I was only mildly interested in

Sunday, May 4, 2014

දෙවියන්ට ස්තුති
අහස දෙස
බැලූ ඔහු
අහස වසාගෙන ආ
කළු වලා දැක
කුඩයක්වත් නැති ඔහුට
වෛර කරන්නේ ඇයිදැයි අසා
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