After a while

It becomes easy after a while

To pretend you're okay

So that no one knows

How much you are hurting inside

It becomes easy after a while

To lie, to smile

Make everyone believe

You are on cloud nine

It becomes easy after a while

To pretend the ground shakes no more

That your world is still

Quiet like it is for them

It becomes easy after a while

To stage a play

So that no one notices

When you slip away

Waves

It hits me in waves

This godawful truth that

You are gone

Without me

I worry sometimes
That I stripped you of
Any happiness
Smashed all your
Hopes and dreams
On the ground
Covering it with
Shards of glass
So you had to be careful
With every step you take
I worry sometimes
That you no longer smile
Your eyes no longer shine
You can no longer love

But then
Worse
I fear sometimes
That since I left you
On the side of the road
Like trash
You've built a life absent of any trace of me
That you've
Without me
Found happiness

Facebook friends

We are friends on Facebook

We like each others posts sometimes

We share posts the other has shared

We've been friends for months, years

Whenever I'm in one of those moods

And delete whoever I'm not really friends with

I skip their profiles

I let them be on my friend list

And yet, when we stand within arm's length from each other

We don't recognize, we don't acknowledge, we don't smile

We don't say we like their outfit even though

We go back home and like a picture they posted that day

This is what we are now

Friends

But not really

Strangers on Facebook

Silence

Silence for a week

As a fever crept up on me
When I wasn't looking
As blood test after blood test
Showed a decreasing platelet count
As medical jargon was thrown my way
And no one was quite sure
If I was going to be okay

As I sweated and then shivered
Swallowed pills that didn't go down smoothly
And threatened to come right back up
As I slept and slept and slept

As I shut myself out of the world
A headache making me cry in pain
Every single inch of my body
Aching for god knows what reason

Silence for a week

I had that at least
For a week
Seven days or so
My mind was too busy
To let you crawl your way to the front
And so

Silence for a week

And as twisted as this sounds
Thank you for that

Two is company

They say three is a crowd
But there's just the two of us
So everything should be fine
But then
Deep in my mind
My heart
If you search long enough
You'll find him
A third among us
A flag to claim
The most important parts of me
His territory
And no matter what you do
Or say
Or are
I will always consider
Him and I company
And you a crowd

Hasn't it been long enough?

You linger
Still
In my mind
Like the stale breath
Of a smoker
Who put down his last cigarette
A long time ago

Fine print

If you had ever loved me

Then it must have been like the fine print

Terms and conditions

We all agree to without even glancing at

Friends?

Would we ever have been able

To remain friends?

You with your refusal to admit

You led me on

That it was you who

Took that first unnecessary step

And me

Stupidly unable to follow instructions

Stupidly breaking the one promise we made each other

Stupidly falling in love

Would we ever have been able

To remain friends

When your heart had not an ounce of love for me

And all mine had was love for you?

Medusa

In the beginning

Your touch was soft

I felt safe

And we left the world behind

Walking

Hand in hand

The wind followed us

Making my hair dance

Almost like the snakes

On Medusa's head

And just as I was

Starting to love

My life with you

Your skin lost its softness

And your touch bruised me

We were now walking against the wind

Which carried fine sand with it

Making my skin burn

My eyes water

And I knew the end was near

Because as if afraid of

Turning into stone

You could never

Look me in the eye

Anymore