To Johnny Meowing

It's getting worse
Those images of him
While he was dying
And we couldn't do anything
And I couldn't be strong for him

Those images
They flash in my mind
When the world is quiet
And I can't sleep
Like cameras clicking
Flash flash flash
He is dying
Can't breathe
Can't walk
Can't fight anymore

They haunt me
Make me feel sick
Scared
Angry
Hurt
I close my eyes tightly
Take deep breaths
Try to think of something else
But everything I know
Somehow reminds me of him

And I want to feel his soft body
Hear his purring when I rubbed his belly
Those little kisses he would give me
The love he was so full of

Baby
I miss you
And I'm sorry