Surrounded

By love
I'm surrounded by love
And it pains me that
I cannot participate
In the game of loving
And being loved
That is going on around me

Let us love

Love
Beings
Regardless of their
Sex
Ethnicity
Complexion
Social class

Love
A person
Because you love that person
And not because
They are of a particular
Sex
Ethnicity
Complexion
Social class

Love people
Don't just have sex
Don't just fuck
Make love
Instead

And yet
People are picky
Ethnicity is considered
Conversion is encouraged
Sometimes demanded
The lower class
Try to fit in with the rich
The upper class
Convince themselves their
Pauper lovers are still love-worthy

One pretends to not notice
When the other talks about lau

And so
Love is for the rich
Love is for the poor
Love is for
The Buddhist
The Christian
The Hindu
The Muslim
The athiest
The agnostic
 (etc.)
Love is for the rich
Love is for the poor
Love is for anyone
Love is for everyone

Yet
Love is assumed to be heterosexual
Relationships are assumed to be heterosexual

We are told to love and not (just) have sex
Then why does it matter if
Woman loves man or woman?
Or
Man loves woman or man?

Attraction of oppositesIs deemed normal
Anything but the
Attraction of opposites
Is deemed
Abnormal
Sinful
Unlawful
Disgusting


Love doesn't discriminate based on sex
But society does

Let us love
The people we love
Let us love
Regardless of
Sex
Ethnicity
Complexion
Social class
Let us love
Because
We have no choice
We don't choose
Whom to love
We can choose
Whom to be loved by
But even that decision
Is none of society's business

So
Let us love

Worship

She spits out
Bitter love worship
Chant to bring him
Back to her
Venom soaked prayers
To a venomous god
Offers dead flowers
Blossomed in her dead heart
Thorny offering
Drawing blood
She hits forehead on stone ground
Doesn't cry out as blood soaks skin
Already so sweat-drenched
The bells chime
Haunting music
That shakes heart
Makes mind shudder
At the sound of
Repulsive love-song
She offers soul
For his
To be hers
Until death strikes

Is love the mere changing of relationship status?

Single

A shout into the void

About your loneliness

Desperation

Fear

A subtle way of saying

I'm available

Make me yours

In a relationship

You tell the world

You show off

You suffocate your friends

With the love

You made your own

To say, I'm not noone's

I belong

to someone

Engaged

Happiness is mine

You say

Even though

You said yes

To his question

Knowing that

You will be his

And he mayn't be yours only

Married

We are one

We are together

We are the fairytale

That is real

Envy what I have

A man by my side

A contract that binds

Two souls

Forever

In an open relationship

I have freedom

I can love many

I was given that option

An option I didn't want

So while he

Has many

I have none but him

But a status that implies

I have more

It's complicated

No longer a shared life

But love that is dying

Lives separating

A deparate attempt

To hold on to

What is already

Lost

Separated

Tree trunk

Reaches sky as one

Giving it strength to

Stand against winds

But then branches

Separation

A contract still binding

But no longer paid heed to

Divorced

Ugly status

That followed

Ugly words

Ugly actions

Ugly decisions

Ugly lives

Sometimes for the best

Mostly due to

Having no choice

But to sign those papers

To say good bye

Widowed

Through sickness and health

Smiles and tears

Bright days and dark days

Together

Till death do us part

And death did

Took one from bedside, home, life

To graveyard

Why did we

Why did we dream,
knowing our dreams
would never come true?
Why did we hope
knowing the odds were
against us?
Why did we pray
knowing the gods weren't
listening?
Why did we love
knowing our love wouldn't
stand the test of time?

We dreamed because
our hearts were young and
the world was ours
we hoped because
hand in hand, it seemed like
all we could do
we prayed because
we thought our prayers
would be heard by someone
we loved because
that is what we thought
the world wanted us to do

All Worth Fighting For

You,
hiding behind
people
lost in the
shadows
unheard of
unseen
unloved
And yet,
he notices you
he sees the
hope in your eyes
a faint glimmer
but it is there
for you still
hope
and dream
of love
of happiness
even when the scars itch
reminding you
of the world's darkness
the world's evil
You still believe
and he notices
He holds out his hand
for you to take
at first hesitant,
you might be
but take his hand
let him pull you up
brush away the dried leaves
and twigs
tangled in your hair
let him wipe away the tears
and let him make you smile
you will then see
in his eyes
the same sadness
seen in yours
and you will also see that
faint glimmer of hope
in his eyes,
the way he saw it
in yours

This isn't a love story
this isn't about
finding your soul mate
there will be no heartbreak
or love letters burnt
This is the story
of two wounded soldiers
fighting against the world
their weapons are love
kindness and faith
ironic,
but such is life
and they will walk on,
limping,
but they wont give up
for when they see the world's
hate and anger,
they lose hope
but then,
they look into each others eyes
and they see
that glimmer of everything
worth fighting for

regardless

I can't tell you

where I'll be

this time

next year

I can't promise to

be there for you

when everything

crashes to the ground

I can't promise to

hold your hand

or lend a shoulder

for you to cry on

I can't tell you

if I'll still be here

to listen to you

and be there for you

Yet, know that

regardless of

my promises

and stupid decisions

Regardless of

all the hurtful

things

I say to you

Regardless of

each time

I pushed you away

from me

Regardless of all that

if you come to me, broken

I will fix everything

I possibly could

I wouldn't do this

because I

still love you

in one way or the other

or because I

have a heart

that forgives

and forgets

or because I am

too tired to

let the past

haunt my future

But because

no matter what

I can't look at your eyes

and let you go, again

Childhood

We knew what heartbreak was

Even before we could walk

We knew what it was like to expect

And then have your dreams crushed

Our hearts were broken not by people

We cried tears not for others

Our tears were for scraped knees

Broken hearts for toys we didn't get

We built houses, where our stories were told

Walls and a roof, to keep us safe

They were not made of brick or stone

Playhouses where our childhood was spent

Writing for you

I wait for an update

Checking your blog

Nearly everyday

But then it slowly

Dawned on me

That the waiting was useless

For just how I

Slowly stopped writing

For you

You stopped writing for me

And we became two people

Who once made

Memories together

And now

Our blogs remain

The posts not for each other

Sometimes

About each other

But never for

That's how life is,

I've learned

That's how love is

You taught me

I can live with

The thousands of reasons

Why it wasn't meant to be

But I can't live with why

We didn't let it be

Shooting Stars

I had no list

For Santa Claus

I had no wishes

For the shooting stars

I couldn't afford

To dream or hope

For the world is no

Wish granting factory

And yet as the night ended

Another day gone by

We stood there

Hand in hand

Watching the waves crash

Into each other

Our hearts beating as one

Yearning for all that we can't have

Constellations

Look!

Nangi, you aren't looking.

There, right there

It's a constellation

Point your finger toward the sky

Your arm stretched

Like my arm.

Now slowly and carefully

Follow my finger,

Trace the stars with me

And unveil what it hides

The bear maybe,

Isn't that your favorite

Constellation?

Or is it the scorpion?

Trace the stars

And I will tell you a story.

A deep dark secret

You see, Nangi,

Once there was a constellation

There was a mother star,

A father star,

Three child stars

One day the mother star left

For the desert lands

She had to light up the sandy acres

You mayn't understand

But the mother star had to

Work hard to keep

Her family happy

So the constellation was missing a star

But they went on

Then the father star left too

He was needed elsewhere

Understand this, my dear,

You are too young, I know

But he didn't go to kill

Even though that's what

The other kids say

No, the father star went to

Fight for his country

But he's yet to come home

Like one of the child stars

He stepped on something bad

And he blew out

The way all stars do at the end.

But he blew out at too young an age.

The two star constellation

Was lost, alone and scared

They stopped being a constellation

Of their own

And instead joined this constellation

And that constellation

Until, there was no where else to go

But no matter what happened

No matter how hard times got

The brother star

Never stopped loving

The sister star

And the sister star never

Left her brother's side

And even when the dark was

So incredibly dark,

They kept shining,

They didn't let the world

Pull them apart

Nangi, the story doesn't end there

Our stories are too long

And too unique

To say it all at once.

But remember,

Don't let the night sky scare you

And don't let the bright sky

Blind you

Nangi, don't leave the constellation

It may be difficult to stay,

But it's even worse to leave.

Epiphany

A sudden realization

That is what I had

An epiphany

A thought that

Makes you say, 'huh!'

It explained things

Not everything

But most things

And as the sky darkened

I felt that relief

The relief of knowing

Of reaching the surface

Of that pit of water

I had been drowning in

I was told,

"You don't love people,

You love the fact that

They love you."

Makes sense now,

You love the need

You don't love the person

The epiphany

Made life lighter

It raised the

Weight

That pulled me down

Love

Love with its silence

A quiet existence

It's not in your face,

Your raised eye brows

Or crooked grin

Love with its infinite ways

A suffocating presence

Your smile genuine

As you hold my hand

Praying for my pain to go away

Love with its forgottenness

Once there, now no more

You look away,

As your eyes meet mine

That smile a mere memory

The smile that made everything okay

Love with its discarded life

Thrown away with many a other things

It's in the rare messages

Or gifts or calls

But when we hug

It's the one thing missing

(For all the different loves and different 'you's of my life )

:)

Four lines and a haiku on love

Lovers come
Lovers go
Lovers they
Never stay


He sits on the sand
Waiting for her to come back
She never looks back though