On nights like this, I struggle to ignore that godawful truth
It's embarrassing, especially given my age
And the mask that resembles a brave face I hide behind
But hey, today, I'm just a little too tired to keep it in
To pretend that everything's okay
That our family of five that became four that became three
Will soon become two
That I have to smile through every single thing
Friends family whoever
Does that steer us more and more away from
How things are
I usually pretend none of this affects me
That I'm in control
That I like the direction in which my life is headed
But today, my feet ache a bit too much
Breathing feels like a chore and crying seems to be a thing
We now do for no reason, with no warning, at the oddest times
My fingers can barely make it across the keyboard
So let's get this over with
The goddamn truth
I'm so fucking lonely.
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