You ask me how I am
"All okay?"
And I want to tell you
Everything
How rotten I feel
How my skin doesn't seem to fit my body
How loud it is inside my mind
How truly awful it is
But it all takes so much energy
And I can't be wasteful
So I tell you
"All okay"
Seven letters
Two words
That is all
I can give you
Today
Monday, April 27, 2020
1am
It's one o'clock in the morning
Can this time of the day
Even be called morning?
But I'm awake and I'm tired
And I keep wondering about
This one thing
Who would I be
If things were different?
What if I'd never met you
Or anyone else
What if my father never left
And my parents were happy
What if I was smart
And aced my exams
What if I was happy
And never sad
What if things were different
What if things were good
Would my life be a whole lot different?
Would it be the 27th of
April twenty-twenty
Would it be one in the morning
And would I still be awake
Unable to sleep?
Tuesday, April 21, 2020
Easter
This year
No one brought it up
The usual family lunch
On Easter Sunday
We were under curfew and couldn't
Leave the house even if we wanted to
Last year
My aunt called me
Said they will see us the next weekend instead
Because there are all these explosions
And no one knows what's
Happening
The year before that
I don't know what happened
We broke tradition
Because usually one of my father's siblings
Would host Christmas lunch
And the other
Easter lunchBut that year we decided that
No one would cook this time
We would all go and dine
At a hotel
On Easter Sunday
No one brought it up
The usual family lunch
On Easter Sunday
We were under curfew and couldn't
Leave the house even if we wanted to
Last year
My aunt called me
Said they will see us the next weekend instead
Because there are all these explosions
And no one knows what's
Happening
The year before that
I don't know what happened
We broke tradition
Because usually one of my father's siblings
Would host Christmas lunch
And the other
Easter lunchBut that year we decided that
No one would cook this time
We would all go and dine
At a hotel
On Easter Sunday
Monday, April 6, 2020
Ghosts
While I was asleep
The ghosts in my room
Tore up some sandpaper
And softened the sharp edges
I use to keep people away
And now my heart melts
Like butter
When I'm with you
And I hate it
I hate it
The ghosts in my room
Tore up some sandpaper
And softened the sharp edges
I use to keep people away
And now my heart melts
Like butter
When I'm with you
And I hate it
I hate it
Magic
We should let each other go
While we are still so happy
Staying another day or two or three
May make the magic wear off
And we will be left with nothing
No sparkle, no beauty
Just two humans
So utterly wrong for each other
While we are still so happy
Staying another day or two or three
May make the magic wear off
And we will be left with nothing
No sparkle, no beauty
Just two humans
So utterly wrong for each other
Sunday, April 5, 2020
Joy
I envy you your happiness
All that joy
For one person
It isn't fair
What about the rest of us
Do we not get a morsel at least
To hold on to?
All that joy
For one person
It isn't fair
What about the rest of us
Do we not get a morsel at least
To hold on to?
Saturday, April 4, 2020
You and I
What you and I had
It was too easy to be love
Hell, I don't think we even
Liked each other that much
It was too easy to be love
Hell, I don't think we even
Liked each other that much
Band-aid
Your apology is a band-aid
But the wound runs deep
Skin parted from throat to navel
Blood oozing out
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