Some days

sometimes you wake up and everything feels like death
everything hurts as your peel yourself off the bed
like velcro being pulled apart
you can almost hear bones cracking, muscles tearing
and you know then, you just do

the same way you know when its an unexpectedly cold morning
your skin covered in goosebumps
and you know it's going to be a lazy day, wrapped in a blanket
sipping hot tea, looking at the changing skies
you know all this before your feet hit the cold floor beneath
but there is no excitement or hope or joy on days like this
it's almost like
while you were asleep
the world tilted just a bit to the left
and suddenly the fortune you had enjoyed so far
with good days and good feelings
disappeared into the universe
taking away happiness, optimism, love
with it

so you sit there, on your bed
a tremor in your hands
trying to slow your breathing
your head feels like it weighs a tonne
your shoulders curved in
and you know that this is all your body can give you today