Temporary

For the first time in a while

I'm happy

.

This is not the kind of

filled-to-the-brim happiness

that'll have me

running down the streets

with a dozen balloons

tied to a dozen ribbons

This is not the kind of

in-your-face happiness

that reminds me of

sunflowers and sunshine

so much yellow

warm

the colour of happiness

This is not the kind of

all-consuming happiness

that spreads like a

juicy rumour or

common cold

it's not contagious

my happiness won't make you happy

.

No

This is a different kind of happiness

.

This is the kind of happiness

that only shows itself

in a smile that is no longer forced

This is the kind of happiness

that fills me not with butterflies

fluttering about, but a calm emptiness

This is the kind of happiness

that makes me want to hold on to it

for as long as it lasts