Happiness

Don't always write
Such sad words
You are such a happy girl
All smiles and laughter



But do you not know that
It is because I wrote
Word after word
To empty my mind of
Unhappiness
That I can smile now?

Do you not know that
My body can shake with laughter
Only because the loneliness
That possesses my body
Every now and then
Have been exorcised by words?

How dare you ask me to
Stop doing the one thing
That allows me to be the person
You claim to love so truly

How dare you ask me to
Let go of the one thing
That keeps me sane
Stops me from drowning