hope

I know how things will end between us

My interest will wane, and you will continue to

Live your life

And we will laugh at the jokes

Our friends make, empty our drinks

You will leave, eventually

And I will forget about you

But there are moments,

I won't lie,

When I look at you

And imagine what it would be like

If you looked my way

Just once

stay.

"Don't leave"

You mumble in your sleep

It's more about you not wanting to

Wake up, get dressed and see me to my

Transport home

Than it is about wanting me to stay

And yet, I hold on to those words

Thank you with a quick kiss on the cheek

Which you probably don't even feel

You go back to sleep after I leave

Dream about the woman you love

The life you want with her

And I toss and turn your words in my mind

Savour them like a sweet lozenge melting in my mouth

Before they turn into nothingness

And slip away from my mind