Tuesday, November 23, 2021

Together

In that moment when it felt like I had lost everything
You reminded me of him
And I'd hoped and prayed for that to never happen
But with just a few words
Suddenly, you were less like you and too much like him

The moment passed, of course it did
But that feeling, I still carry with me
I toss it from hand to hand
Throw it against a wall, hoping it would shatter
It remains intact

Monday, November 15, 2021

Childish

It's so childish this desire to be happy
To know what it is like
For today's happiness to overflow
Into tomorrow and the day after
For happiness to not be so tied to other people
And places and alcohol

I want to know what it is like
To wake up and feel no weight
Or dread
To just be.

Sunday, November 7, 2021

It was never about you

It was never about you
All these years, wasted
Looking for a person
When it was the feeling I was after

Monday, November 1, 2021

Tender

And from him a tenderness
Unexpected
One you couldn't give me
In any of our shared moments
It takes me by surprise
For perhaps if your touch had been softer
Slower, kinder
Perhaps then I would have felt for you
In our many moments
What I felt in that one moment
With him