Friday, November 27, 2020

sunsets

Outside, the sky is pink

Like exposed skin

From when your arm rubs against a wall

As you are pushed against another


It will turn orange soon

Like the anger that spits and crackles inside

That heart that once couldn't contain its love for you


And then darkness

A blue that is almost black

The moon will be bright

A scattering of starts

This is what you see when you close your eyes

Against the violence

When the pain is too much

And you can't cry out


Today, the evening sky is a reminder

Of the day you got that black eye

The bruise on your leg

The day he first hurt you

Starting with words and then a slap

A punch and then a kick

And then two and three and more and more


But yesterday, the evening sky reminded you

Of roses and lilies and daisies and iris

Baby's breath and jasmine

Hibiscus and anthurium

Sunflowers and dandelions

That first bouquet he brought home

Lies hidden beneath those soft petals

Monday, November 9, 2020

Pills

While looking for something in a cupboard

I found your pill organiser. Plastic. Once white

Now covered in the faintest layer of dust

It hasn't been touched in five years

That's how long it has been

It rattled when I picked it up. It wasn't empty

Pills you had planned to take

But never got around to taking

Pills that, in the end, didn't matter.

They didn't extend your time with us

Saturday, November 7, 2020

Online dating

May be the reason I keep swiping left

On man after man

Not pausing to consider

Take a closer at their pictures

Interests carefully added

To seem interesting

Chill with a cold beer?

Talk over coffee?

Meet for pizza and wine?

A cattle market, really

This hellhole of an app

Is because I keep hoping that someday

I'll come across your profile


That I'll see your face again


And I'll spend a good five minutes or more looking at your pictures

Reading all the tidbits of information you've

Included about yourself

And I'll swipe left, of course,

Close the app, delete it


And I'll wonder if you came across my profile

And if you did, whether you noticed it was me

And if you did, whether you went left or right