colombo

Colombo is so small

And everyone knows

Everyone

And yet, you seem to have

Slipped off the grid

Disappeared into its grime and dust

Forever 

sleep

And so I fall asleep

With the sound of rain outside my window

Darkness enveloping me tenderly

A deep loneliness growing in my heart

Its sharp edges pressing against the walls

Of this weak organ that keeps me alive

Ownership

You snip at her feathers
Cut off her feet
Her tongue
You rob her of her voice
And like a cat pisses to mark its territory
You claim her

50/50

Perhaps
Twenty years from now
We will look back at this time
Of my life
And laugh at how tough
It all seemed
Or maybe
You will look back
Twenty years from now
And wonder
If we would have ever pictured a future
From which I am absent

Time travel

I want to rewind

Go back to a time

When I didn't know you

But you were elsewhere

Yesterday
After everyone had left
And I had too
Walked into an empty house
Locked the door behind me
Enveloped by silence
Not even a clock ticking somewhere
The end of the night
Approaching
When I was so so alone
In that moment
I wanted you

blossoming

From the five millimetre incision

She allows herself

Every other night

A red flower blooms

Its petals veined like

Butterfly wings

Where the skin creases

Wrinkles

Lines crisscrossing

At the wrist

Between hand and arm

Pain

Light

Like a feather

Flutters against the cut

That doesn't run deep

That won't leave a scar

It's safer this way

For her

She doesn't need to hide in shame

The release she allows herself 

shut up

Fallen stars

In the ocean

  Just ships

  In the distance

Always stomping

On my fantasies

Setting fire

To my dreams