Funny guy

You thought my heart beat for you

My every breath was taken for you

Every moment lived was for you

You thought I was yours

But you were so far from the truth

It was almost comical

I’d have laughed

But I found an ounce of kindness left for you

Your heart was already broken at my expense

I didn’t have the heart to make you

The butt of my jokes

Anymore

Deep within

There is a place deep within me

And that’s where I’ve hidden you

So that no one can reach in

And take you away from me

When they ask me how I am

I say with no emotion on my face

Or in my voice

I am okay. I am okay. I am okay.

And they believe me

You can’t blame them

Because I am the one keeping secrets

Pretending that I no longer miss you

But when alone

When everyone has left

I reach in to that place deep within me

And let your absence possess me completely

Hunting

I couldn't stand you
Because you reminded me of something
I was trying so hard to forget
The chase and the catch
The hunt and the kill
Of a while back
I fell foolishly for
So much that I willingly
Trapped my foot in the snare
And let him add me to his collection
Of foolish prey
And you reminded me too much of that
Even though you were more like a
Clumsy hunter with butter-fingers
Your hunting gear, unpolished, inadequate
Your skills, even worse
And yet, something about you
Reminded me too much of him
And he fooled me once
But I wasn't to be fooled again

Linked

In an email from a website for professional networking
They suggested I connect with you
In a professional setting
Apt, I suppose,
Since sometimes it's clear that
We were nothing but colleagues
You would walk in, sit in a corner
Work silently, leave
I would try to ignore you
And yet, fail at it because
I didn't know you
And mysteries always attracted me
But here we are now
Removed completely from each others lives
Both real
And online
But this one site meant to keep things professional
Has gone and opened a Pandora's Box of emotion
In my heart.