The glue that held together all the pieces
I shattered into when you dropped me from above
Always so careless, you were
The glue that made me feel whole again
Melts now in this heat
And I am left as nothing but a pile of broken pieces
No glue is strong enough to hold together
Until finally
My heart explodes
My lungs collapse
I breathe my final breath
And like broken bits of a glass dropped
Someone sweeps me into a dustpan
And throws me in the trash
Friday, September 29, 2017
Superglue
Closure
I didn't believe in the need for closure
Until I realized I'd wasted the past four years
Waiting for someone
Who wasn't coming back
Shot
I guess I'll never know
if all this pain is because
you actually shot at me
or because
you pulled the trigger before I could
Forget-me-nots
There are days when I forget you completely
I forget how black your hair was against your fair skin
How warm your body felt on the coldest of days
Your voice breaking the silence I had begun to need to breathe
I forget everything about you
Everything you were to me
And just as I congratulate myself for
Finally getting rid of you
You push forth to the surface
Making me miss everything about you
That still makes my skin tingle
Blood flow faster and heart beat louder
Heavy
It's been four years
And I'm tired now
Of carrying with me
The weight you left
Behind
Come now
To me just once
Don't speak
Don't smile
Don't even look at me
Come to me now
So you can lift this weight off my shoulders
And walk away with the burden
That belongs to you
Sunday, September 24, 2017
Untitled.
Thursday, September 21, 2017
Skeletal remains
Of these leaves
All that remain are
Skeletons
Much like
The love that was ours
Back when the
Trees were heavy with
Leaves
So full of life
Like we were
Once upon a time
Monday, September 18, 2017
thief
Overstaying your welcome
Saturday, September 16, 2017
It's all on you this time
Thursday, September 14, 2017
And you ask me why I won't let you in
They barge in through the door
Leave behind a trail of
Muddy footprints
Let taps drip and drip and drip
Leave unwashed mugs and plates
In the sink
They sleep on beds you just made
Mix up your perfectly organized books
Shatter the silence with their voice
Disrupt the life you've made for yourself
And just as you begin to
Warm to their presence
Like them
Love them, even,
They walk out the door
Leaving behind
A mess for you to clean up
Wednesday, September 13, 2017
Fully booked
Don't you understand
That my heart
Has no space
To accommodate
Anyone else?
Do you not notice
There is no equivalent of a
'Rooms available' sign
For my heart
As if it were a motel?
Don't you see
How hard I'm pushing you away
Trying to be subtle, kind
But telling you
To leave?
Do you not know
That love
Of a romantic kind
To me
Is just a waste of time?
Why then
Do you keep banging on the door
Asking to be let in
Even though
You've been told to leave?
Tuesday, September 12, 2017
After a while
Sunday, September 10, 2017
Waves
Friday, September 8, 2017
Without me
That I stripped you of
Any happiness
Smashed all your
Hopes and dreams
On the ground
Covering it with
Shards of glass
So you had to be careful
With every step you take
I worry sometimes
That you no longer smile
Your eyes no longer shine
You can no longer love
But then
Worse
I fear sometimes
That since I left you
On the side of the road
Like trash
You've built a life absent of any trace of me
That you've
Without me
Found happiness