Blood is thicker than water, they say

It hurts that

You never wore

Your Sunday Best

On a day

Important

To me

It hurts that

You never remembered

I exist

Until you were told

You can't deny

My existence

It hurts that

You are yet to spell

My name right

It's Shailee, not Shili

Do you even know

My full name?

It hurts that

You used to look away

Pretend I wasn't yours

Make me feel

Make me know

I don't belong in your life

It hurts that

You only talk with me now

Because you've been told to

But that you won't

Even make an attempt to

Get to know me

It hurts that

You still expect me to apologize

Even though

The only crime

I committed

Was being born

It hurts that

Even though he wronged

Even though you

Let him wrong

I'm the one cornered

I'm the one blamed

It hurts that

I will never be as good

As any of them

Even though

I too, do my best

To make people proud

For a different you.

Silence

And one by one

They were all gone

And it was just us

On a stranger's couch

We didn't look at each other

But didn't look away either

We didn't say a word

But the room wasn't silent

And then there was a shift

In the air around us

And for just a few seconds it felt

Like something would happen

But we both let that moment pass

We sat there in silence until the others

One by one

Returned

Today

There are days like today

When I'm happy you don't play

A big role in my life

That the distance between us is great

And I don't talk with you

As much as I sometimes wish I could

And today, I didn't wait for your posts

I didn't feel too happy about the notification

Telling me you noticed something

I said

I didn't have to worry about bumping into you

Having to smile

Having to hide that

I was happy to see you

I didn't have to think twice about

What I said

In case you heard, or worse,

Someone else did and told you

There was none of the worrying

Wondering, smiling, talking

Today, it was almost as if

I didn't spend my time

Wondering about you

If you were reading, writing

Or listening to some song we both love

And today

You were just another person I knew

Someone I was only mildly interested in

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